I have decided to use yesterday’s word after a conversation I had with my Aunt last night. In the course of conversation I mentioned Dads favourite lunch was grilled cheese and tomato soup. So she said you must miss them a lot. But the way she said it I didn’t feel like it was a good thing.
The other day a cousin posted a photo of another cousin that got married. When I emailed a fellow family member to tell her when we were chatting back and forth it was like talking to Mom. I miss that. Mom would have looked at the photos and thought well that’s an interesting dress. I don’t know what she would have thought of all the guests wearing white. I remember my Dad telling me that his mother had a disagreement with the minister when she got married. I remember my parents exclaiming how expensive her wedding was as well. Although I do remember wondering why they would tell Dad how much it cost. It’s hard to believe that it’s 34 yrs ago since she got married. I could tell you what I wore. It was a yellow and blue check sundress with a square neck. A yellow jacket with puff sleeves and Janet’s was blue. It was quite grown up for a 10 year old. The funny thing was although we looked like ladies there are photos of us running around in front of the church.
That’s what I miss the most. Being able to share stories, memories with someone that shares the same memories. I miss Janet’s laugh. I miss having someone to go for walks with. I miss having someone to go clothes shopping with. I do wish I could get Mom’s advice right now.
Last night I changed my profile picture on Facebook to my favourite picture of my and Janet. When I look at I’m reminded of a smile that would light up the room. The bond that twins have and the love that lives on.